This whole week I have been getting more and more frustrated with Dr. Fayad that he has not been able to contact us and let us know if things were looking great or not. I have emailed and called Amira several times and her hands are tied - I don't think she is allowed to read the reports.
I made a mistake yesterday morning when I was on a call, another call came in and that was from a blocked number - MD Anderson has a blocked id when the call. So when I was trying to be quick to swap call, I hung up on the blocked number.
Right away I called MD Anderson but remembered as the signals were going through that Dr. F and Amira aren't there on Fridays so it couldn't have been them. Then I started thinking about the whole thing and I got really angry that they still haven't told us. So, stepping on anyone's toes or not, I didn't care.. I called up Dr. H's office and left a message for the nurse that it was urgent and that I really needed to speak to Dr. H.
They called me back late in the afternoon to let me know that Dr. H wasn't in but she would put the message on the board and it would get taken care of as soon as she is back in the office - Monday morning. I told her that I know the report is there, because I can see it on the My MD Anderson page - I just couldn't read it (understand it) I've spent hours trying to google what is what and when it comes to the molecular language its not easy to understand even with Google. So rather than trying to diagnose myself, I was going to be patient and wait for them to call.
She called me back about 1.5 hours later and said that they had faxed the report to Dr. H and she read it and Aj is in REMISSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *for my parents/brother - cancern ar borta* han kan inte kallas for kurerad forran efter 5 ar. men cancern ar borta i kroppen just nu!!!
It took probably 15-20 minutes for me to understand and then I was thinking, no I don't dare to believe this. They are going to call on Monday from MD Anderson and say that Dr. H didn't read it right... So I was still nervous and happy at the same time. I mean could it be?????? Cancer come and go in 4.5 months???
Then I called Aj - he is in Vegas with Barry to watch a fight and hang out. I told him - go out and celebrate tonight and do it BIG!! Then I just broke down and cried and cried, could barely speak. It hit home... Adrian no longer has cancer.... Wow - I get tears in my eyes just writing it now. This is almost as surreal as when they told he he had it. Its almost as I want to think that someone just wanted to f*** with us really bad, for a few months and then just go away. But hey! I don't have any complaints about it going away the way it did. I am just amazed!
What an emotional roller coaster these months have been, incredible. Still he has two more chemo treatments left and I know for sure that this will always be with us. It will never really leave us or we will never be able to leave it. Every check up is going to be nerve wracking, but we will get through that too. If we could live with it active - we can for sure live with it in remission too!!!! Live every day - doesn't have to be to the fullest, but just LIVE and feel alive. You never know what is ahead.
So, that is when I got the Champagne out and toasted with the girls!! They don't have a clue how serious this has been. But one thing is for sure and that is they are HAPPY! I told them that the doctor said that Pappa is fine, he is well. All three of them screamed and Chloe did her little dance and said - 'oh yeah baby, oh yeah'
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